Music and Me

 February 8th, 2023

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    Hello everyone, my name is Lily. I am an Elementary Education major. Music has always been a part of my life since I can remember. My mom learned how to play the piano, for a while she tried to teach me but I could never grasp how to learn it. So in the future, I am wanting to become either a 3rd-grade teacher or a 5th-grade teacher. Both sound really fun to do. So I was born in Darlington SC, after my parents separated we moved in with my grandmother, who at the time lived in Hartsville SC, during this time a lot of things happened. But after a year or so of living there, my mother started to date my now stepfather. We did end up moving in with him while he was living in Clinton SC, his sister, my aunt, helped us find the house we are currently living in. Now with so much happening since my family moved and lived in Clinton SC, my love for music has never stopped. I have two older brothers who have helped me so much in everything I have done. We currently have a dog and a cat. Pepper and Felix, we are living with my mom's sister and her family so we also have 2 more cats and one more dog. 

    One of my favorite music artists for a few years now has been a K-Pop group called BTS. I know most people don't really care for music they can't understand, but for me knowing the meaning behind the song changes how I feel about it a lot. I do listen to a lot of different types of music, but this specific genre has so much to offer me. The song that has been on repeat and I usually listen to a lot has to be Save Me by BTS. I remember when I found out K-Pop was a thing. It was a random night after school and my mom was making dinner downstairs. I had just finished watching a Youtube video from DanTDM and Save Me was in my next recommended thing to watch. This was really weird for me to try something other than bands such as Linkin Park and Green Day. With my brothers in high school that's all, I listened to with my oldest brother. So I never really cared about other music. So I decided "hey let's try it, what is the worst thing that could happen". Well little did 10-11-year-old Lily know that one song would change her whole world. 

    After listening to that one song I fell in LOVE. But I always seem to go back to that one song if I am either feeling down or lonely. It's become my comfort. So with graduating a year early and starting college, this song has been on repeat a LOT lately. After maybe a few months of listening to the song I wanted to know what they were saying. So I looked up some lyrics in English. I was actually really surprised when I was reading them. Some of the lyrics are "Listen to my heartbeat. It calls you whenever it wants to. Because within this pitch-black darkness. You are shining so brightly". This was nothing of what I was expecting the song to be. But I felt in a way I really loved it. I felt like maybe I could be someone "Shining" in "pitch-black darkness".  Now after still listening to it for years. The lyrics always end up meaning something different for me. 

English Lyrics

    Now for a song that means a lot to me. Surprisingly it's a song that hurts the most to listen to these days. I never thought I would have a song that hurts me so much to listen to it. I think it ends up hurting me the most because it brings me back happy memories that I will more than likely never get to enjoy again. The song is Cinderella by Steven Curtis Chapman. This is a song my biological father would usually play while I was staying the weekend with him. We would always dance in his living room with it playing, even sometimes on repeat. In the last few years, I have not been having the best relationship with him anymore. So it feels like I can't listen to it anymore without crying about the memories. This song will always be important to me. No matter what relationship I have with him, I can always think back to this song and remember the good times with him. 

    

    Lastly, a song I don't really connect with would have to be Just Awake by Fear, and Loathing in Las Vegas. I think my only real reason for not connecting with this song is because my oldest brother would always have this song as his alarm for school in the morning. So before we got heat for the whole house we would have to sleep in the living room. So every single morning it would go off. I would always get so annoyed because it meant we had to get up. I like the fact that it's in another language but the way the singer screams and everything, I just cannot get in the mood to listen to it. It always makes me want to go back to sleep just to say "Ha, you're just a song and can't make me get up and leave the house".